This weekend was the ending of the PEI Pride week for this year and as normal I skipped out on most of it. However, I did end up watching the Pride Parade downtown with my Cousin. As well I did go to the end event last night. Which was a Masquerade Prom at the Red Shores Casino.
I had gotten all dressed up in my dark purple dress shirt and matching necktie. I matched the tie and shirt with a pair of blue jeans. For my footwear I wore black sneakers. I walked there and it took about 10 or 15 minutes to get there. I also made sure to put on my Old Spice before I start my walk. As well as having a bottle of water before I left.
I walked down the road and passed the Tim's on Belvedere Avenue.Then I continued to walk to the Red Shores Casino. Wherein I walked through the doors and found the music coming from a specific area of the Casino. Specifically coming from the Eastlink Centre and I followed the music. To which I found a table to take my money and got a marker writing a big black P on the top of my hand. The music was blaring and I continued to walk towards the huge Pride flags everywhere.
The first thing I did was head to the bar for a bottle of water to drink. I stood calm, cool and confident waiting inline. My posture was strong, tall and in charge. My body language was I got this and relaxed. I took the bottle of water and gave the bar lady my money. Turning away I walked towards the dance floor where the music was blaring from. In front of me was the Rainbow colours and amazing work of masculine art. The DJ dancing around with no shirt on, but, a black bow tie with a grey vest.
Next to the DJ was a very stunning woman whom also caught my eye. I was getting twice the eye candy and listened to her as she pronounced herself the Queen of the Pride Prom. She kept talking about how it was the night for "us." However, in my experience "us" was not me, but, the other letters the G and L. I still took it in stride and had already started to dance around on the floor. I was one of the only people on the dance floor and I owned the dance floor it was mine. I was the King time to bask in my glory of being back home in my kingdom under the Rainbow lights.
It had been years since I had been to a GBLT dance or other event of any kind. As I looked around from the different sides of my eyes I noticed I did not know anyone that was attending the event other than myself. However, there I was one of the only people actually dancing. Spending the time dancing and eyeing the DJ as he was dancing himself. All of a sudden several people saw me dancing on the floor and they walked over and started dancing too. I continued to do my dancing with my water bottle in one hand.
The dancing and eyeing Mr. Bow Tie continued with more people joining the dance party on the floor under the lights. My dancing was strong, high testosterone and highly using my upper body moving to the beat. All of a sudden I was joined by a very sexy young woman in her early 20's by the look of it. I am not sure if she was a lesbian, another bisexual or a straight supporter of Pride as I never got to ask her. She danced around me and give me a big smile. She wore a long golden shimmering dress and had a purse with the same hue to it. All of a sudden a very obviously gay friend of hers jumped over and started dancing with her.
She started dancing with her friend instead and then bumped into me. Rubbing up against me her back across the front of me. I said "oh, sorry." thinking I accidentally ran into her. She just smiled at me again, even larger than before. She came in real close to me again... real close. She ended up dancing not with me persay, but, staying close to me. She did not speak to me, she never opened her mouth and just smiled a few times. Then went away continuing to dance with her friend; whom I also was never introduced to.
Upon thinking of this moment I am still not sure if it was accidental or if maybe she could tell that I was not like her friend. Maybe she could tell I was looking her over and understood what that meant about me VS her off limits friend. I am still taking it as accidental, but, the what if is definitely there. I ended up dancing more and looking at the DJ dancing around the turntable. I went off to get more water. Taking strong strides and swaggering on over to the bar. I went up to the bar and asked for my water. Standing tall, strong, straight (as in upright) and smiling without showing my teeth.
I handed the bar tender my money in exchange for the water. Flashing a quick smile to her and taking my water. She looked at me and as if almost stunned by something asked "how much did you just give me?" As if she was distracted from what she was doing by something. I told her I gave her a $20 bill and she handed me back my change. I smiled again and walked away. The rest of the night went amazingly well.
I did dance around some fellows and also some other ladies as well. One woman I danced with told me not to move and "you can REALLY REALLY dance!" She went off and started talking to someone and when I got back from the washroom she was gone. The dancing was only interrupted by breaks to the washroom and get more water. Overall the night went great. I was even treated to two hot young ladies making out right in front of me as I danced around them. I could swear they had Bisexual Pride coloured feathers in their hair, but, maybe I was seeing things.
I decided to leave at 1:40AM and did not stay till the end of the Prom at 2AM. I walked home telling my Cousin via my texting on my phone of how wonderful the night was. I loved my night, but, not because it was Pride. It was due to actually getting out of the apartment and having a wonderful time. I was not overthinking anything I was just being myself and feeling it. I was just enjoying and going with the flow. Not only that, but, all night I felt like all man! So, masculine and powerful! Such a man! It was if my testosterone was spiked high as all get out and I felt great. No stress and super happy.
I wondered if that is why so many women were drawn to me all night. Even if they were not into me sexually as it was a Pride event. The women loved my energy and my vibe. My man in motion, my confident and in charge Alpha if you will attitude. Even my dancing it was not some "Britney Background dancer" thing. I danced in a different way than the DJ. I danced in a more stronger way and used my upper body strength a lot. One could say I danced in a more masculine manor than the more feminine gay (I am assuming he is gay) DJ. I was such a manly man last night at the Pride dance.
I loved every minute of it and I loved the energy flowing through me all night. I loved the vibes I had going on. The I got this, it is my world to conquer feeling. The I am in charge and large (in a good way) feeling. I trusted whatever I would do last night was right for I believed in myself from the moment I would mossy on into the Prom. I was the King of my own Prom and I spent the night in that attitude. I was grateful for being Christopher Murphy and owned it. I was the perfect man at the Prom the perfect me. I was me I was free and did not give two fucks about anyone else and their view of me.
I want to tap into that feeling all the time. That go with the flow and I am a perfect man just as I am. I am all man I am the King of my own Kingdom feeling. What one would think would be the most opposite place as to where I would get in touch with my Masculine Heart and show it was where it showed. At of all places PEI Pride Prom 2016 I walked into the dance and out with a renewed love of myself and love of life. A renewed relaxed and calm feeling. A renewed manhood and saw all the man I am. Not man I could be for I will never "become a Man..." I AM A MAN! ALL MAN!
