Born Again Christian; Biblical Fundamentalist, Received Text-KJV, Dispensational

Born Again Christian; Biblical Fundamentalist, Received Text-KJV, Dispensational

Friday, September 16, 2016

Final Fantasy X-2 Original Soundtrack --- Real Emotion By Jade W/Lyrics













What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
I can hear you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
Far beyond the hazy borders of my heart
I can see a place
It's something like this
Every now and then I don't know what to do
Still I know that I
Can never go back
All the things I've seen
In those hazy dreams
Can't compare to what I see tonight
Everythings so different
That it brings me to my knees
And oh, I know, the world of Real Emotion
Has surrounded me
I won't give into it
Now I know, that world
It is the only way my heart can go
I hear your voice calling out to me
You'll never be alone
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
I can hear you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
I don't plan on looking back on my own life
I don't ever plan
To feel I own you
Even if by chance everything should go wrong
You come in one day
And try to save me
If from time to time
It's an upward climb
All I know is that I must believe
Cause the truth I'm seeking
Always was inside of me
And when, I find, the world of Real Emotion
Has surrounded me
The many things that you
Taught me then
Will always be enough to get me through the pain
Because of you I am strong enough
To know I'm not alone
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
I can hear you
And if, I find, the real without the motion
Has surrounded me
And I can't go on
And you are there
The moment that I close my eyes
You comfort me
We are connected
For all of time
I'll never be alone
And oh, I know, the world of Real Emotion
Has surrounded me
I won't give into it
Now I know, that forward
It is the only way my heart can go
I hear your voice calling out to me
You'll never be alone
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
I can hear you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
I can hear you
I can hear you

Thursday, September 15, 2016

Yes, I do cry sometimes and yes I do have immense emotions deep inside me. I refuse to call that a "feminine" side.





Sometimes people can be so layered just like an onion and be a mystery to the world. Other times people can show themselves and be not mysterious at all. Other times still one can show themselves only to be deemed something they are not by those whom wish to put us in boxes. Boxes that come from a flawed misunderstanding of human natures.

I have had myself in times of severe emotion cry, and cry again. I have had myself start crying over the death of video game characters from more modern games with realistic Full Motion content. Specifically; the 1000 Words scene from Final Fantasy X-2 is especially emotional to me. As well as the Aerith/Aeris death scene in Final Fantasy 7. I have had also emotional moments of being sad out of nowhere in the past.





My being a man does not equal a lack of emotions in anyway. Far from it I can be so emotional when it is appropriate. The truth is I can be an amazingly big ball of feelings and emotions. I can be both tough and strong, but, also a ball of feels when it is appropriate to be so. It is simply that is it not always appropriate to be a feels flowing over like emotional spaghetti. There is a time for rational discourse and also a time for emotional rain-showers. Each thing has their own time and place.

Some people have said in the past it is because I am Bi that I can be so emotional. It is because I have a "gay side," or "feminine side." That it is because I have a womanly side of my mind that I can get so emotional at times; even if I do not show it always openly. Or sometimes I do show it openly even when not appropriate, but, try my best not too. It is said by some it is because I have this "fem" side to me that I am like this at times. It has also been said the reason I love so deep for my partners is also "fem."

This in that case would mean Straight Males are not able of having immense love for their partners? That straight males never have immense emotions and feel deeply in general? That straight males never weep? Never have intense feelings? Never sob? Cannot empathize with anyone anytime? Or only "fem" straights can feel these things? Total and absolute bullshit I say! Total bullshit! There is nothing inherently "fem" in feeling and emotions. Nor about being sad enough to sometimes cry openly.

Masculine men have been feeling emotions and feelings ever since our species came into existence. It is just we do not always present it the same. Or show it the same way. I would argue even crying out loud and not hiding it is also not inherently "fem." I mean why does strength/toughness have to mean lacking empathy, lacking emotions and lacking heart? Men do not accuse other men of being this way at all. It is mostly ironically women that have said these things to me.

I have had mainly women call me "fem" for having moments of intense feeling. I have never been called less than a man by other men. Women label the things which are more tender as somehow "feminine." Why? Let alone being "gay." Me being human does not make me feminine. All men are human we are not machines. All men feel and all men care deeply for things in life. Why? We are human we are not some separate species. We are a different gender/sex and we are not a different species of animals.

Why does one being sometimes emotional liken them to the opposite sex/gender? That makes no sense. Emotions and feelings are human traits we all share and not sexed/gendered ones. Even Autistic people whom are considered to have no emotions at all; totally unable to empathize with anything feel a ton. This group is one of the most "masculine, and "male" typical groups around and yet they feel. Hell, they even cry!

One can also point to how the male tear-duct works and matures. Just because the tears are not running down a mans face does not mean they do not feel the same as a woman with waterworks on full free flowing. Hell, even if a man is crying at the same rate as a woman does that mean he is less than a man? I do not think so. Different men are different and not all men are the same. We are all individuals at the end of the day and we are not a collectivist hive mind.

My sometimes in some situations balling or weeping. Or being depressed or just plain feeling deeply. This has nothing to do with me being "feminine." Or me having a "fem side." I counter to love deeply and to feel is as masculine as fighting for those that you love is. Men have always been people that feel that is to be human. To have emotions is to be human. We are highly evolved 5th apes and we are not machines. We are human beings and men have always been human even if they have been treated like utilities or parasitical threats towards women.

Women might; and some women do label these traits "feminine." This is not because they are it is because they cannot stand seeing this side of masculinity. This side of men. They want men to remain the utilities to "society," and White Knights to others with vaginas. To put down their own feelings, needs and wants as humans to live for some collective "women." A collective of  "for women," which does not exist as there is no collective "women." Only individual women and some are cunts whom deserve men to not do anything for them. Others are good people for which helping them is simple benevolence and good will.

If men; even the most Macho man is capable of this domain of feelings. Of emotions and even crying. If it is not dominated by women then we do need to think about men and their rights. We do need to think of men and their needs in our cities, Countries and world. Not because one needs to be sending out the Feels to be human. However, due to us for so long considering it a trait of those whom are capable of being hurt to also be tossing that hurt out in waterworks. This needs to stop! Even if men NEVER felt like women! We are human! We have needs, wants and desires! We are not utilities nor walking wallets.

I mean it; even if men were not able to empathize. Even if men were not emotional at all ever! We are still human! Women are only one half of this species and to single them out for having needs, for being human is cruel, unusual and vile. It is to not see men as human; literally to see them as an other that can be targeted for anything or can lack anything. To say they do not need a support system sometimes like any other human being. To say we are not human! Well; fuck that men's rights ARE human rights you man-hating cunts. Having the ability to feel and to process that in your own way is not "feminine." It is human and men have always been this. Masculinity does not equal not being human!

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

The heart of masculinity is pure and passioanate love; sometime's overly assertive and sometime's overprotective, but, love!







What I am about to say will sound sort of Woo Woo to some and out to lunch to others. Especially those whom dislike manliness and masculinity in men. However, I am coming to realize the more I age and the more of time I am a man on this earth the heart of manliness and masculinity is a pure love. A love that is passionate; sometimes can be aggressively passionate and overly assertive, but, love. The heart and soul if you will of every man is love and passionate love pulsating every pour.

Providing and protecting is an act of love and benevolence towards the people a man loves and the others in the world whom might need that same protection/provision. Aggression while so often dehumanized is often an intense and passionate display of love as well. Used in defending the tribe in ancient times against invading hordes and also still to this day in protecting a man's family, or nation in defensive action.

Soldiers are not horrible vile scum, no matter what the anti-veteran types try to fling. Cops are mostly good despite often enforcing horrid laws and sometimes using excessive force. The Cop is using aggression, but, only does it because he has been told it is protecting the innocent from the predatory. The answer is to make the laws no longer go after Victimless Crimes and not to have denigrated men whom are cops. It is all an act of passionate love and aggressively helping the innocent. It is masculinity personified.

When it comes to the often sited "male domination," this too is love. No, seriously it is love as well. Males dominating the work force in certain places is an act of love. Men naturally love certain things it is part of being a man and having a masculine brain. Those things he loves happen to be the most dangerous and deadly jobs. He dominates them because he loves them despite their dangers. Why? He is doing his natural duty Mother Nature is tyrannical and they are listening to that hormone soaked brain. Following their desires and in by taking jobs most women do not want they are loving those women by protecting them from the deadly and dangerous jobs.

Same can be said of the idea of Males leading. A male leading is not evil, vile and far from it. Men leading are taking charge and putting themselves out there. Putting themselves into the most dangerous places for rejection or heart break. As well as danger from leading with an idea that might make them homeless in a month if no one buys the idea. Men being most of the CEO's are in fact protecting the women whom might not be able to take such stress from having to worry about the life of a leader.

One can literally go down a whole list of things men do just in a single day that is out of love. Out of nothing, but, love for themselves and others. All men, and not just some men. By all I mean the majority; the fucked up minority does not represent the masculine of the species. All of the majority love and do due to love every day of their lives. Masculinity is built on love; first on that positive selfishness of soul called self-respect and a proper self-esteem. From their it moves outwards like a wave among everyone they deal with. Love and pure, positive, radiant love. That is masculinity.

The majority of men are good. I am good, the man reading this is good if there are any. Masculinity is good, no it is better than good. It is a Universal need it is a necessity of existence. Reality does not make any sense without it. You cannot have femininity without masculinity. As they say yin and yang need to exist. Every man; from the most vanilla man to the ones whom consensually tie their mates and fuck them ALA Christian Grey. Every man is probably you will find good. Or at least CAN be good! The natural nature of the human male is good, and evil men are MADE not born.

People need to learn to look behind the external. Even the most aggressive, violent behavior can come from a positive, purely loving intended place. Masculinity in its heart and soul is purely positive goodness. Yes, yes, I am saying MOST men are excellent people. That does not mean there are not evil men there are. Again, they are MADE not born all evil men and evil women were born GOOD and MADE evil. Evolutionary Psychology says we are not noble savages to which I agree. However, even the savages that killed did it because of their instincts to protect their own; which is an instinct of love.

I also think the true heart of the feminine is love. Radical feminists and harpies make a horrid mess of femininity and make it seem vile. When it too is made at its heart of love, and goodness, motherly nurturing goodness. However, the feminine is not under attack and undermined by societies while masculinity is. It never should be and never should have been marked as bad. Love, yes, LOVE, is the heart of all integrated men. For it is the heart of all masculinity from a very primal place in our species and The Universe. Masculinity is love and love is masculinity. To love deeply is one of the most manly things in the world.